I’ll not lie, these last two months have been tough. Dealing with everything – I got through it all, and it’s all more or less sorted. Surprises and bad memories put back where they belong – in the past. It’s strange how life can change the way you feel.
Now it feels like there’s something not quite right – now, after it all – I feel slightly off balance. Like I’m a bit broken, like I’ve used all of my super powers up and I don’t know how to fix myself.
I’ve been telling myself I’ll go for a run (which makes everything better) for the last 5 days… but no run has materialised. And now my sleep isn’t working out again. It’s annoying – it’s really annoying. Something at the back of my mind, is eating away at me, and I don’t know what it is or how to get rid of it.
Or maybe I do. I’ve bounced back before, so I know what to do. I’ve gone through crap and got over it before, I’m strong, I have a cape – I’m ‘Super Lorn’. I have everything and everyone I need to rise above any problem.
I’m not going to think about what he problem is, as it probably doesn’t even matter. It’ll be some deep down feeling or worry that doesn’t need to be there. Instead, I’m going to focus on what I can do and will do, to get better.
1. Get a good sleep routine – bed for 9-10, 8-10 hours sleep. Make sleep work with all I e learned to get to and stay asleep.
2. Get active – run my last 38 miles for this year, then commit to and get into my 16 week marathon training plan from 5th January (for London). Run with others and on my own.
3. Meet friends – be happy and enjoy life. Talk about things if I need to but talk about normal things too, and other people. And spend time with my rock: Fit Girl. 🙂
4. Help others – this has a chain reaction on me, when I help others, it makes me feel good. First one is going to visit my uncle, getting to know him a bit more (I’ve met him about 4 times in my life) and dropping off my mums car to him.
All of that is pretty simple really. And it will all merge into each other, running will make me feel good and tire me out, to help me sleep. Sleeping will make me feel better, as will meeting friends and helping others.
It seems so simple now I’ve written it down. I just need to get over my excises for not going for a run (it’s wet, it’s cold, I’ve not slept) and get out there to help myself start to feel better. Get a grip and take action to make me feel better and get better.
I even have two new pairs of running trainers – so I better get out there and use them!
I really did have a great Christmas Day. Lots of presents and lots of good food (but not too much). 🙂 I feel very fortunate with everything and everyone I have, I just need to get my cape back on and feel better and get back to normal.