There’s something about letting go of things and appreciating everything that I have that I’ve become good at. Life is good, it’s what I always dreamed it would be like. I’m healthy, happy and successful… I have love, a home, a job I love and lots lots more. Things are great. 🙂
But sometimes certain things from my past creep up on me and smack me in the face. Demons from old come up and BANG they’re there and I have to deal with them. I dealt with a lot growing up and I’ve got good at dealing with my demons. I’ve been broken, and I’ve fixed myself and I’ve stood back up again. Repeatedly. It’s who I am.
Almost always happy and cheerful, enthusiastic and full of energy. Someone once asked me : ‘do you ever get down?!’ I don’t tend to much, but when I do, I know that it’s always best to quickly deal with the demons, and move on. I usually talk or write them out of my system, I learn to understand them, accept them, let go of them and move on.
Yesterday that happened. Driving home on my own in my car from the shops, it hit me and I cried almost uncontrollably. I got home and I knew what I had to do…
I write it out of my system … I wrote someone a rather long letter. Someone who is responsible for my demons, probably most of the demons I’ve ever had. I didn’t print or send it, but I got everything out into a sensible, comprehensible, honest and true letter. Out of the squiggles in my head, into 12 short paragraphs that made sense to me. Some of it was nasty horrible, all of it was the truth. About how that person affected me, and made me feel. And it helped me stop crying, helped me to understand everything, and move on, quickly.
I’ll never send the letter, although I could. But I dealt with it. In just over an hour, I quickly dealt with my demons that caused me tears (again). I shared it with someone close to me and they wrote back to me and agreed that it was all true. They confirmed my nasty thoughts and words towards someone else who hurt me as true and right. The words were ok and good for me. They reminded me that I’d dealt with it before and I’d dealt with it again. I am free from it, and free from the hurt and the upset.
I’ve moved on, and I am happy with my life and what I’ve become. Here are some quotes I was sent after they read my letter. The first quote they thought, reminded them that I’d taken my hand off the stove a very long time ago. 🙂 very true indeed.
“Some people manage to hurt over something 24 hours a day, 365 days a year. They never realise it’s time to take their hand off the stove.”
“Time doesn’t really exist except as an abstract concept in your head. The present moment is the only time you have. Make something of this moment.”
“Life is not that serious. Let’s take humour more seriously.”
“We are continuously faced by great opportunities brilliantly disguised as insoluble problems.”
“The 11th hour is usually an impostor. When everything looks black it could be time to celebrate. You may be nearly home.”
Mark Twain once remarked that he had been through some terrible things in his life, some of which had actually happened!
“All you have is now. The measure of our peace of mind and the measure of our personal effectiveness are determined by how much we are able to live in the present moment.”
R.I.P – Here lies someone who was going to be happy………….TOMORROW
“We all have all the time there is. That is 24 hours in every day – nobody gets any more or any less.”
“When it rains look out for rainbows, when it’s dark look up for stars”.
“Most people are about as happy as they make up their mind to be”
I know how to deal with my demons. I know there’s no point in nursing the hurt, in anger or upset. There’s no point in tears and sadness. There IS point in letting go, moving on, living life and appreciating everything you have. If you need help being happy: Read The Happiness Code. 10 steps to being happy.
Yesterday, I shared my letter with just three very close people. No drama, no worry and only off track for a little while. Back to work at 330pm yesterday, doing my stuff, teaching swimming and helping people the way I know best. Today in work, I was straight into work, no demons around (all shut out and buried), smiling on the way to work, smiling throughout and smiling on the way home.
When I got home I calmly and quietly talked it out with Fit Girl and realised that I was fine with everything. I’d dealt with it by writing my letter.
Yesterday my demons returned and I quickly slammed the door in their face. I didn’t give them much space to fester or burn, and I was quickly able to get on with work and life and continue to be happy. Talk, write things down, don’t bottle it up. No depression, no drama, no worry from others about me.
I’ll never send my letter as I know it would cause hurt, and I don’t want that. There were horrible things written in it, really horrible and there’s no point in being horrible, to anyone. I have moved on, but sometimes a little darkness comes in and clouds over my normally rose tinted world. When the clouds part, the sunshine and rainbows reappear and I like it that way best.
So when the hurtful, upset or angry demons return to you… do you know how you’ll deal with them? Will you give them the time of day to sit down? Or will you not even let them in the front door?
Have you taken your hand off the stove? My stove is turned off and I’ve taken my hand off the stove. Maybe you could too? Learn to let go, live life, be happy and be proud of and appreciate everything you have, and everything you have become. You are not broken, you’re on a journey, and you can be happy too.